I friggen hate school so much. I feel like it's just so hard this semester and I'm completely fed up with it. I just wish I could quit without people judging me. It's just not something I wanna do. I feel like wasting another 10 years on my life with school is just such a waste.. I don't want to be stuck in a fucking building learning bullshit that won't apply to me once I'm done. I just feel so done. Like...I just hate freaking out about it 24/7. No ambition, Dont give a fuck. I'd rather work at RiteAid the rest of my life than learn this pointless shit.
If anyone needs me, I'll be hiding under my bed.
Monday, October 28, 2013
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
Random shit
I just read my last blog post and came to a few conclusions:
1. I haven't posted since July, which means my life must be REALLY exciting.
2. I can't believe I put up something so personal online.
3. I sound like an idiot.
Lately I've been debating with myself whether to make this blog public to my friends. And by "public" I mean posting the link on Twitter and seeing which poor unfortunate soul is stupid enough to click on it.
But then I think about all the people that will probably judge me for it, and then I think, "hmm....better not."
But you know what? I don't really care that much. If people have the nads to judge me for my own personal opinions, they can go right ahead. Disclaimer: you should know that I won't give a fuck.
ANYWAY
Lets talk about college...
I hate it.
THE END.
Finally got a new job that doesnt suck balls, which I'm really happy about. I actually enjoy going to work now and don't mind working 24/7....Even though that time dips heavily into my "Nap for 5 hours a day" schedule.
Right now I'm laying in bed wishing I hadn't taken a 5 hour nap earlier, because I know I won't be able to sleep. Why do I even call it a 'nap'? A nap means a 30 minute siesta. My 'naps' are more like mini comas.
anyway, I'm laying in bed, looking around my room and beside my bed, on my table, I have a picture of Jesus surrounded by sheep. I'm not even religious, but I found this picture laying at the bottom of a box, under my bed, burried in bullshit that I've collected through my short 20 years, and felt bad. Isn't that like....sacrilege? Of course, placing it in a place of honor, on my messy table surrounded by trash and empty candy wrappers doesn't sound like I'll be getting repentance for that sin any time soon..
What do you have laying around your room that doesnt make any sense?
1. I haven't posted since July, which means my life must be REALLY exciting.
2. I can't believe I put up something so personal online.
3. I sound like an idiot.
Lately I've been debating with myself whether to make this blog public to my friends. And by "public" I mean posting the link on Twitter and seeing which poor unfortunate soul is stupid enough to click on it.
But then I think about all the people that will probably judge me for it, and then I think, "hmm....better not."
But you know what? I don't really care that much. If people have the nads to judge me for my own personal opinions, they can go right ahead. Disclaimer: you should know that I won't give a fuck.
ANYWAY
Lets talk about college...
I hate it.
THE END.
Finally got a new job that doesnt suck balls, which I'm really happy about. I actually enjoy going to work now and don't mind working 24/7....Even though that time dips heavily into my "Nap for 5 hours a day" schedule.
Right now I'm laying in bed wishing I hadn't taken a 5 hour nap earlier, because I know I won't be able to sleep. Why do I even call it a 'nap'? A nap means a 30 minute siesta. My 'naps' are more like mini comas.
anyway, I'm laying in bed, looking around my room and beside my bed, on my table, I have a picture of Jesus surrounded by sheep. I'm not even religious, but I found this picture laying at the bottom of a box, under my bed, burried in bullshit that I've collected through my short 20 years, and felt bad. Isn't that like....sacrilege? Of course, placing it in a place of honor, on my messy table surrounded by trash and empty candy wrappers doesn't sound like I'll be getting repentance for that sin any time soon..
Saturday, June 22, 2013
SO FUCKING ITCHY: A Girl's Journey With Mono
Word to the wise: if your doctor checks you for strep and the test comes back negative, make sure they don't give you antibiotics just for the hell of it.
Aparently those with Mono who take an antibiotic (amoxicillin) because they've been misdiagnosed by doctors, tend to get a full-body rash that makes you look like a lumpy red pickle and essentially is so itchy you wan't to kill yourself.
IT GETS BETTER!
There's nothing you can do for the itch.
I've tried a million different things. I've almost gone through a whole box of Benadryl pills in less than 2 days.
I've even sat on the floor naked wrapped in a soaking wet, ice-cold towel in hopes of relieving the itch.
I can hardly even type this right now because I'm itching so fucking bad.
I can't even remember the last time I've slept.
OH! And lets not forget that my face is swollen and nasty. At least its not red and blotchy anymore like the rest of my body, so I guess that's a plus.
So yeah...Don't let your doctor give you an antibiotic when you have Mono because I assure you, you WILL wan't to kill yourself.
Aparently those with Mono who take an antibiotic (amoxicillin) because they've been misdiagnosed by doctors, tend to get a full-body rash that makes you look like a lumpy red pickle and essentially is so itchy you wan't to kill yourself.
IT GETS BETTER!
There's nothing you can do for the itch.
I've tried a million different things. I've almost gone through a whole box of Benadryl pills in less than 2 days.
I've even sat on the floor naked wrapped in a soaking wet, ice-cold towel in hopes of relieving the itch.
I can hardly even type this right now because I'm itching so fucking bad.
I can't even remember the last time I've slept.
OH! And lets not forget that my face is swollen and nasty. At least its not red and blotchy anymore like the rest of my body, so I guess that's a plus.
So yeah...Don't let your doctor give you an antibiotic when you have Mono because I assure you, you WILL wan't to kill yourself.
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
sick status
The only thing that can possibly make me feel better is a nice pint of Double Fudge Brownie Ben&Jerry's.
Sunday, June 9, 2013
Sick and delusional
I have not been feeling well the past couple of days.
It feels like every limb of mine is going to drop to the floor any second. Even my hands hurt. Either I'm getting premature arthritis or something is seriously wrong. That and the fact that my temperature is over 100 degrees.
I legitimately only got an hour and a half of sleep tonight. I've been up since 3am and don't see myself going to bed anytime soon.
Here's where my dilemma comes into play.
Its sunday and I'm supposed to work today.
Definitely not happening.
I am DREADING calling out because I can tell they secretly hate everyone who does so.
Which is STUPID because they literally have 389247283 people working there every day.
They don't need me there! But I just can't help but feel guilty, even when I'm actually sick!
Wish me luck in calling them.
My heart is already pounding.
It feels like every limb of mine is going to drop to the floor any second. Even my hands hurt. Either I'm getting premature arthritis or something is seriously wrong. That and the fact that my temperature is over 100 degrees.
I legitimately only got an hour and a half of sleep tonight. I've been up since 3am and don't see myself going to bed anytime soon.
Here's where my dilemma comes into play.
Its sunday and I'm supposed to work today.
Definitely not happening.
I am DREADING calling out because I can tell they secretly hate everyone who does so.
Which is STUPID because they literally have 389247283 people working there every day.
They don't need me there! But I just can't help but feel guilty, even when I'm actually sick!
Wish me luck in calling them.
My heart is already pounding.
Thursday, May 9, 2013
Awkward
Do you ever wish you were someone else? Not only because maybe someone else's life is better than yours, but maybe it's because they have something that you don't have.
My only wish is that I wasn't so fucking awkward.
like....you'll never meet a mor socially inept person than me.
People feel awkward just being in my presence.
I just met my boyfriend's friends, might I add, there were only like....4 other people there with us....and I WAS SO FUCKING AWKWARD.
Why is he even dating me. Seriously, right now he's probably talking to his friends about how stupid and awkward I am. Like....I wouldn't even wanna date a person like me.
Meeting new people is a huge issue for me. I can hardly even manage a shift at the Bucket without having a mental social-anxiety breakdown.
I'm just so done right now.
I'm going to go hide under my bed for the rest of my life.
Maybe that way I can eventually forget that this night ever happened.
My only wish is that I wasn't so fucking awkward.
like....you'll never meet a mor socially inept person than me.
People feel awkward just being in my presence.
I just met my boyfriend's friends, might I add, there were only like....4 other people there with us....and I WAS SO FUCKING AWKWARD.
Why is he even dating me. Seriously, right now he's probably talking to his friends about how stupid and awkward I am. Like....I wouldn't even wanna date a person like me.
Meeting new people is a huge issue for me. I can hardly even manage a shift at the Bucket without having a mental social-anxiety breakdown.
I'm just so done right now.
I'm going to go hide under my bed for the rest of my life.
Maybe that way I can eventually forget that this night ever happened.
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
You should probably go live in a bubble..
WHY are you always sick..?
Like, seriously?
I mean.... It is pretty easy to get sick when you don't do ANYTHING besides sit around my house, which ISN'T YOURS and eat all of our food.
Damn, you have a rough life.
Invest in some hand sanitizer or something..?
You can buy a small bottle for like, a dollar at RiteAid.
Oh yeah,
AND DON'T COME HERE!!
Seeing you wrapped up in that blanket right now like you're a fucking burn victim infected with every disease known to man makes me wanna slap you across the face a thousand times over.
Seriously cannot fucking stand you.
Like, seriously?
I mean.... It is pretty easy to get sick when you don't do ANYTHING besides sit around my house, which ISN'T YOURS and eat all of our food.
Damn, you have a rough life.
Invest in some hand sanitizer or something..?
You can buy a small bottle for like, a dollar at RiteAid.
Oh yeah,
AND DON'T COME HERE!!
Seeing you wrapped up in that blanket right now like you're a fucking burn victim infected with every disease known to man makes me wanna slap you across the face a thousand times over.
Seriously cannot fucking stand you.
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